Beautiful Dawn

Anywhere with you

fuck my dick

"Fuck my dick"
"Feel him inside"
"Get him all wet"
"cum all over him"
"Wet him with your juices"
"You feel so good"
"Oh honey, I love you"
"Ride him" That's right, ride him"
"OOHH,yes"
"Do you feel him? Is he hard enough
for you?"
"Yes, oh yes"
"That's it, yes, yes, cum honey, cum. cum"

This Stranger...

There is no going back to that other. She is gone. This stranger, she is who you have become.



There is no going back to that other person, back to that other place. This thing, this stranger, she is all you are now.

Her Embrace

When I see her my heart is content.

Her eyes hold such mystery. Mystery I want to know.

Her lips luscious. I want to kiss them.

Her words. A gentle breeze whispering.

Her touch so inviting. I want to be held in her embrace

Secret Life....

Have you ever thought about having a secret life?

Do you have a secret life?

A life that is completely different from your ordinary, everyday life. To become the other person you have been hiding away in a dark place. Explore with all the senses again as though for the first time. Have experiences that would blow your mind away. Live out those fantasies that have been filling your dreams and leaving you wet all day long.

An Unspoken Truth

I have an unspoken truth to speak...

I am a virgin.

Not in the sense that I have never been with a man sexually. I have. I have only been with one man in my life. Growing up that was the way I wanted it or rather that was the way I was brought up...No premarital sex. No, I was not raised by nuns! Had all these aweful things told to me that I grew up scared of sex. I did have pre-maritial sex but I have been with that same man for the past 12 1/2 yrs. He had been with 2 others before me.

I feel cheated out of part of my life. Cheated from growing, exploring, and becoming who I was meant to become as a sexual being. Sure I had plenty of offers and opportunities to have sex with boyfriends but GOD was always there telling me I was a sinner. Evil. And yes, I did not think much for myself, I always had others thinking for me, mostly my parents. Boy did they fuck up my life. I was never a rebelious child.

I am in a commited relationship and lately have been finding myself wanting something more. My sexuality has been in high gear this past summer and at times I feel like I am going to go out of my mind! I do not want to loose what I have with my partner, I guess what I am saying is that I want to expand the boundaries of our sexual relationship. Explore and get creative in our sexual experiences together. After 12 1/2 yrs of always having sex in the same place, bed, always late at night or early 1st thing in the morning, and the same 3-4 positions is rather old and stale.

To Be Continued....

Men and Tattoos...

I am out doing my grocery shopping. I turn to go down the next isle and there he is. This amazingly sexy looking guy. On his arms are these beautiful tattoos. OMG I can not stop staring. I am turned on. But by what? The amazingly sexy guy? The tattoos? Or both? It's hard to breathe!

I snap back to reality. Continue shopping. I am distracted. I look up and FUCK there is another one. Another sexy guy. With tattoos! SHIT! My heart is racing! My thoughts are "Can I have you both?"

What is it about amazingly sexy guys with tattoos? My legs turn soft, my juices start to flow and I get so turned on.

Our Hands, Part II

BE GENTLE

Our hands...

WE GOT THE WHOLE WORLD IN OUR HANDS!
STOP GLOBAL WARMING!

Enough

I am SPEAKING! Why does no one fucking listen to me? I am SCREAMING and still no one hears me! What the fuck is this? I matter. I am important. What I say is important and matters too. I want people to stop fucking ignoring me. It is like a knife in the heart. In my soul.

I feel invisible. unseen. unheard. I am alone. You take my friendship, kindness and generosity and fatten yourselves up on it like it is the substance that sustain life and think nothing of it. Greedy. Selfish. Self-centered assholes, bastards. Fuck all of you. I want to cut the feeding tube and let you all starve to death. Take nothing from me anymore.

Cardinals

An Animal Totem is an important symbolic animal used by someone to get in touch with. Certain qualities are found within each animal which that someone needs, connects with, or feels a deep affinity towards.

One can have several animal guides through out their life. Sometimes an animal guide will come into your life for a short period of time, and then be replaced by another depending on the journey or direction you are headed toward.

For the past 2 years the cardinal has been coming in and out of my life. This summer she is everywhere, speaking to me; since Summer Solstice I have had so much manifest in my life.

So I take this moment to honor her, the cardinal, all her beauty and what she has become to me.

I enter the cave...

I have descended into my cave to be with my ancient ancestors and bleed. Bleed upon the earth. Give blood rich nutrients back to Her, nurish Her as She has nurished me. A primal instinct that is embedded in every cell of my being.

I am womyn and I bleed, yet I do not die.

Womynhood Mandala

The hormone cycle is crucial to womyn’s health and well being.
To deny this is to deny Our Womynhood

MoonTime

Began to bleed today



Am so greatful.
Am so full.

I'm A Bitch

Tired

I was flowing over with excitement to get this blog started. There was so much I had to say and blog about. But right now I am so tired I just want to crawl in bed, curl up with my blanket and all my pillows and sleep.

Spider Woman

When two people merge
2 arms and 2 legs plus
another 2 arms and 2 legs
A spider
with 8 legs appears

~Cathy W. Taylor

Vibration

I have 2 place I always keep my cell while driving, either just under my right leg or between my legs.

Set on vibrate...

Vibrate. (verb) to move rhythmically and steadily to and fro, as a pendulum; oscillate. to thrill, as in emotional response.

"To thrill, as in emotional response"

I got an emotional response yesterday! Had I not already been coming to a stop at a red light I would have had to have pulled over. Phone was between my legs, I mean right there! The vibration had me in an instant. Feared I might come cause I was not alone in the van yet craving, wanting to come.

This is not the first time this has happened. What is it with me?! I am horny all the fucking time! I see any man close to good looking and I want to fuck. It's hard to be in the same room as my husband cause all I can think about sex and the 2 of us fucking. Am so hot and horny right now just typing this.

I am a loney, bored housewife. My cell phone set on vibrate, I am embarresed to say, is as close as I have to any kind of sex toy. It's pathetic and sad I know. Anyone feel the need to take me and buy me one, no arguements here.

Food Fight

Food. (noun) a source of nourishment, what you eat.

Food is at the center of almost everything we do. Birth day celebrations, weddings, going out, travel, family/friends gathering, watching TV, everywhere. Humans love to eat. It comforts us when we are sad and depressed. We celebrate with food. Some barely eat. Others eat all the time. There are wars over food.

I have a love, hate relationship with food. Have for most of my life turned to food for comfort. It has always been there for me. No judgement. Only love. Filling all the emptiness inside me. It's taste in my mouth. To me, some food is better than sex (that is a whole another post!) like chocolate. Dark~Bittersweet chocolate. I struggle everyday with food and to add to it am dealing with food intolerances, not just for myself but my cubs as well. I live in a never~ending nightmare that I never wake up from. Shit! Fuck!

There was argument over food at breakfast just this morning. War at the center of my home at the mention of food. I never enjoy food anymore. I can not think about food anymore. No pleasure. Just nightmares

No one realizes the poisons that are in our food. Our own food that is suppose to nourish our bodies is poisoning us. 95% of all illness and disease is caused from the poisons in the food we eat!

What do I do? Do I continue to live this never waking nightmare? Do I stop eating? Eat? What?